Too lazy

难过

为什么到现在我还在爱这你，为什么？能告诉我吗？我真的很想你，很想很想你。我知道我们根本不能在，在一起。可是我不知道为什么我还是不想放下。这是报应吗？是吗？如果是，我已经得到了。你一直以为我骗你。可是我真的没有。我真的真的很后悔，我知道现在不管我在后悔也没有用，应为你不在爱我了，可是没关系，就让我继续爱你吧，只到我真的能放下你在说。我知道每个人一定会说我很笨。但么关系，我还是会这么做。我有时晚上睡觉前都会祈祷希望你会回到我身边，回到两年前那么甜蜜，什么烦恼都没有。只是简简单单的你和我就够了。

两年六个月了。

Karma

I miss you, i really miss you. I dont know why, but my heart feels hurt out of the sudden. I know you love me once and i took it for granted. I really really want you back I really want to.. I just cant get over you.. I know i deserve all this shit, because i treat you that way. I've hurt you that bad. To you now its not hurt anymore is more to happy, but now its my turn. Everyday i cant be truly happy, i think of you day and night. I just cant get you off my mind. I really will do anything to get you back. Because only you can make me truly happy, only you can make me feel secure, only you can make everything beautiful. Really.. LKWIMY

Emotional

Emotional nowdays, not sure why. I think it is because of you again i guess? I hope you are doing well, i really really really wish i could talk to you again, again like how we used to be. I want to listen to your craps, you calling me names, you playing with me, heart to heart talk with me, your shoulder, your sweaty hands, your eyes, your everything. I know no matter what i do now you will never be back again, not even a friend i know. I just miss you alot alot alot alot. I know you may laugh at me when you seeing me in this state. But i dont care. This is the real me. Weak, childish and more. I always look at the opposite of my block hoping to see you walk around here. But i doubt you will come here again. hahahahahhaaahaha! that day youre the one who is crying like a dog. Now? My turn. hahahahah! I deserve this. You deserve way better than me, you dont deserve this pain. I know how you feel now.... What i wanna know now is... Have you ever love me? This is a question that i wanted to ask you long ago. I doubt i will get any answer to this question. Be happy yea? I will still miss/love you until i find a better guy than you :) I think you've found yours :)

Mixu mixu.

I still miss you,  dont know why. I thought i got over you long time ago, but no. The feeling is still there. I try to let it go, but i really can. I miss you but i dont want you back and i cant get you back. Maybe im just used to missing you, not love. I just cant get over it, tearing and tearing, hope it would help. But no. Nothing's gonna help. Fine, maybe i will just let it fade away? Yeah? Okay. I'll do that, gonna let someone new to be in my life. Gonna open up my heart. No point thinking, wishing actually. I know how much you hate to see me, i know. Sometimes i just wish that we are still friends. Not hi bye friends, but real friends. I want that. But.... Nothing's gonna change now, its been 2 years 5 months. If it does, it would happen long ago. I guess im not that lucky enough to have you back as a friend. Sighhhhhh.

Busy

 Imissthisshit.ohgod

Imisshertoo

Busy with school work lately, wtf.. Seriously, so many things to do. FUCK. Tired like shit seriously. Dont even feel like going to school when i wake up in the morning, no feel for school. People who have dreams, lucky for them, i want. But i dont have any. I envy those who have dreams and know what they really want to do/be in the future. Me? I should i do? I have dreams but i dot think it will come true, ya i know people will say " You can do it if you want to" But you see. Singapore? You sure? This is a reality world, you think do what you like can earn much, if i do what i like without earning enough income, what should i do? If i only think for myself, what about my family? Sigh... Really, if i do what i like, then nobody's gonna suffer if they do what they like and earn lots of money right? There wont be beggars in this country. Its okay, its to fast for me to think about my future, as long as im happy now! hehehehhehe! Gonna enjoy life while i can. No time to waste.

School reopens

Heyheyhey! School starts later and im still not sleeping. ohgod, gonna have some sleep soon, awesome day yesterday at work. Even though im tired but still, i had aot of fun with Annabelle and gang! HAHA! They really bring lots of laughter to my life, hahahahah! They cheer me up when im down, make me laugh even though im tired, really glad that i have them as my friends, now it make me dont want to leave that workplace, because of them <3 hahaha="hahaha" p="p">