Emotional

Emotional nowdays, not sure why. I think it is because of you again i guess? I hope you are doing well, i really really really wish i could talk to you again, again like how we used to be. I want to listen to your craps, you calling me names, you playing with me, heart to heart talk with me, your shoulder, your sweaty hands, your eyes, your everything. I know no matter what i do now you will never be back again, not even a friend i know. I just miss you alot alot alot alot. I know you may laugh at me when you seeing me in this state. But i dont care. This is the real me. Weak, childish and more. I always look at the opposite of my block hoping to see you walk around here. But i doubt you will come here again. hahahahahhaaahaha! that day youre the one who is crying like a dog. Now? My turn. hahahahah! I deserve this. You deserve way better than me, you dont deserve this pain. I know how you feel now.... What i wanna know now is... Have you ever love me? This is a question that i wanted to ask you long ago. I doubt i will get any answer to this question. Be happy yea? I will still miss/love you until i find a better guy than you :) I think you've found yours :)